Monday, December 04, 2006

Here is a little food for thought taken from a lecture of Richard Rose's entitled ENERGY AND ENTITIES. It addresses the subject of energy, a fundamental aspect of the Spiritual Path."The spiritual realm and the mental realm are pretty much the same thing, and I'll tell you how I differentiate. We have what I call physical quantum energy. These are all representative in the human being. The physical quantum energy is energy that we get from food, and it's stored in our muscles and in our fat. The mental, or neural energy is energy that's in the nervous system and in the coil. The brain isn't much more than a coil with which if enough charge is thrown in there it can even broadcast. It can put out telepathic mental messages that another brain can pick up. This is where the mental dimension comes in, in the neural system. Now, we take this and we aspire to a spiritual system, and there is no vehicle for spiritual energy, but yet, spiritual energy develops. What we call spiritual energy. In other words, by the transmutation of food, we get material energy, we get as I said, body energy, caloric energy, heat, and kinetic energy. It's also stored in the glands incidentally. By the transmutation of the glandular energy, we get neural energy. The sublimation of this neural energy produces an automatic projection of what I would call spiritual energy, and you can project it not in the form of telepathy, but you can heal people with it, or you can tap a mind with it, and that mind can reach a realization with it, and this is the maximum value of all energy." More to come soon.

Sunday, November 05, 2006

The deeper I get into the esoteric realm of things, the more I become irritated with everyday life. Not so much everyday life, as the importance that seems to be placed on these events. It is almost to the absurd, like erecting a monument to try and immortalize a thing that no longer exists. I don't know how to explain much of what is going on in my head, or what causes my irritation in the first place. Perhaps it is some ego stuck in the throes of knowing it is without purpose, yet it still strives to survive.

I get frustrated at not being able to awaken those around me, and yet I am not fully awake myself. What is that all about?

I have been whittling away at untruths and keep facing mortality, and contemplating death. Contemplation of death sounds morbid, but it is all but that. The fact of such meditation is that it clears away the morbidity of the fact.

Just when I sit down to write, I so often lose my thread of thought and have no idea what to write. It is like there are clear thoughts and experiences, but no actual words to go with them. Doesn't do much for communication except to reinforce the need for direct mind rapport.

I really long for others to share the passion of Self Realization to the degree I do. I know there are others out there, but it is not exactly a popular topic. There is a tendency to put off thinking about such things until very late in life when it is more than likely too late to do much about them. I suffer deep frustration at this. I keep digging. Where am I now in the search. I realize I have spent much of life reading, discussing, thinking, and so forth about Reality and the Nature of who or what I am and yet I have spent really very little time really putting those things into action. Just when I start to squirm, I start to back off. The reality of it though is that it may be in those uncomfortable moments that the real progress begins. It is easy to say you don't fear death until given a death sentence from a health issue or something. It is only then that you truly know what your reaction will be. I am by no means asking for something like that, but I want to make breakthroughs in the realm of Self Awareness, Truth, Enlightenment. Call it what you will. I am really afraid to ask for catalysts as I am afraid I will get them, and I am sure they are more than likely unpleasant. I think we are all reluctant to embrace the unpleasant. In the meantime, I continue to look at things as best I can, and to try and live a life conducive to this line of work. Shut off energy drains, keep the house in order, keep asking questions and walking the path of the reverse vector.

There is a dilemma I often run up against. As things lose their significants I find it harder and harder to find the motivation to do anything other than maintain. On the up side, I seem to care less and less what I do in order to make a living as well as caring less about other events in life. This allows for a much deeper enjoyment of the moment for what it is because there isn't all this entanglement in whatever it happens to be. I do find myself hanging onto so many things though that saddle me with attachment. I get a twinge of freedom with each letting go of an ego or attachment of some sort. I waste so much time and energy with worry and fear that if I just let an experience pass through it would leave so much more energy in reserve, and things that I dread would pass with little notice. That is true freedom, to be able to truly live selflessly. Viewing some of the principles of Christ make so much more sense in that light.

I still do things with the anticipation of some sort of recognition even though I know on an intellectual level that the recognition I seek is foolish. The trouble is that I don't know it on a visceral level.

Tuesday, January 10, 2006

Once the house is in order, where do I go from there?

Perhaps it is a good idea to begin clearing out things that may obstruct your aim. Maybe employing the reverse vector as Rose puts it and begin a retreat from untruths in your life. Things that you know already to be getting in your way. Things that clutter up both your physical surroundings as well as those in your inner house. Things like habits and addictions that need to be addressed. Often your material surroundings can be a reflection of what is going on in your inner life. Look for dead end patterns, energy leaks. Examine your sex life. This is the center of our energy force and the point of greatest disipation and energy loss. Rose recommends celibacy, a daunting term that is fraught with misunderstanding and heavy religious overtones where it may be as simple as conserving energy and lifeforce and allowing one to gain mental clarity and intuition. Celibacy is not merely refraining from intercourse, but refraining from all sexual activity in thought and action. This is a topic that warrants a thread of discussion all its own and is at the core of Rose's principles and many others throughout the centuries. Keep in mind, those who scoff at the practice, haven't given it much of a chance.

Monday, January 09, 2006

Why does the passage of time seem to accelerate as we grow older?

This is a good question. Rose often talked about the concept of 'duration', and how we actually determined the length of a second, minute, or an hour. He said that space and time were incontrovertibly intertwined, and without space there was no time, and without time there was no space, as is the subject of scientific relativity experiments. To a man in a delirium, a second can seem like an hour, whereas to a man in love, an hour with his beloved can seem like a second. It may well be that time is not passing, and that it is our consciousness or awareness that is moving though an already played out strand or drama, of which we take ourselves to be the main character. We are but a Witness, in the Final Analysis, though this is theory until proven by experience for each individual.
How can we avoid tricking ourselves into thinking we are making "progress" on a path when we may just have something on our mind to the point where we think we are hitting something? (an example of this is people who think they possess some special power when street lights go out as they pass them, when actually it is just because they are on a timer and go on and off anyhow.)

I have known so many people who think they are controlling the elements when the answer is really quite mundane and mechanical.

We may not be able to avoid tricking ourselves into thinking we are making progress on the Path, but the Albigen System is structured so that we may be able to offset such self-induced trickery with the aid of other people, in a group confrontation session. Or we may use what Mr. Rose called "Milk from Thorns", which means we use that which uses us, in this case we would continue our self-analysis and self-questioning to include such thoughts as "How might I be tricking myself here?", or "What ego might be behind these thoughts and feelings?", or "How can I better define the idea of 'progress on a spiritual path', in light of these recent developments?". The whole path or effort centers on a never ceasing questioning of our entire being, and all that takes place within its domain, until a Final Answer is forthcoming.
What is it that attracts some people to embark on a Spiritual endeavor while others show little or no interest whatsoever?

People are on different levels, different 'rungs of the ladder', as Mr. Rose used to say. Some are driven by circumstances, miserable or otherwise, to search for release, which at first may be a drive for psychological healing. Others, fewer in number, are born with or develop a curiosity about themselves, their purpose, origin, and destiny, and thus they enter a Spiritual search, in hopes of finding real answers to those questions.

Sunday, January 08, 2006

An important topic for those entering a spiritual path, or for those already on one and maybe in need of something to inspire focus is what Rose refers to in the Albigen system as getting the house in order. Here is a quote from pg. 186 of THE ALBIGEN PAPERS.

"We must be on the alert for impediments that are physical as well as mental. We must begin by setting our house in order, and this means the dwelling in which we live, as well as our physical body. This business of putting the domestic situation in order need not be an enormous undertaking, nor a drive for wealth. It simply means that a person cannot think, study, or carry on work with a group or school if he is beset by domestic irritations and interruptions. And even after the household has been placed in order, as long as we live we must still work to keep it in order, or run the risk of traumatic interruptions... The process of setting the body in order may be very complex, and it too will demand consistent attention. Sometimes yoga exercises help, but the practitioner must watch for signs of sleepiness and the type of peacefulness that drowns out any desire for exertion."

How can we begin to get our house in order?